Strength

July 26, 2008 · Posted in General

(Originally posted at http://mcory.wordpress.com/2007/10/27/strength-v-2 on 10/27/2007)

Strength
I wish to once again enjoy
The naiveté of youth.
To feel the sun of unbroken dreams
Dance softly on my face
To look skyward to a future yet unclouded
By the storms of yesterday.

I wish once more to see the sunrise
And think it just for me,
That birds performed their songs
So I could hear,
That flowers bloomed
So I could see
To live again with youthful arrogance
Unhumbled by life,
Unhindered by time.

I wish to walk within the halls
Of the schools I merely suffered
To hear the lectures I ignored,
To listen better so I could enjoy
What has become the present
And not some faceless future
I’d never see.
To know then what I know now:
The magnitude of my ignorance.

I pray thee give me strength to find
The path I somehow lost.
Ignore the fact I turn from you
When daylight paints the walls
And the fears and pains of night are gone
And again I can paint the smile
Those around me need to see.

I pray thee give me strength to live
The life that I should love.
Ignore that come tomorrow
When night has passed again,
And the prayers I mutter in the dark
And what I promise in return
Are echoes of forgotten oaths.

Ignore that I’ll forget this night
When life regains its normal course,
But give me strength I pray.

Once more to feel the laugh
That stems from inner peace
To no longer tear myself apart
Fighting against myself,
Along side myself,
And not for myself.
I pray thee give me strength.

Strength to stand aside
And let you plot my course
To let the winds fill the sails,
And take me where they will.
I pray thee give me strength.

Or strength to take the helm
To send the crew below decks
And fight the storm
Till only it or I remain.
I pray thee give me strength.

Or strength to reclaim that dear arrogance
To forget what I have learned
And resume the life of the naïve youth
That knew he could change the world.
I pray thee give me strength.

Or strength to take it in the teeth,
To smile my crooked smile
To change my dreams to suit the world
And admit that’s all that I can do.
I pray thee give me strength.

Strength to stand,
Or strength to fall.
I pray thee give me strength.